Dear Olivia,

It was about time I contacted you. We’ve been colleagues for, how long now? A year? Is ‘colleagues’ even the right word? Maybe you can answer that question because you call yourself a writer, but that doesn’t matter right now.

You need to get your act together and finish your pathetic excuse of a manuscript.

You’ve re-written it that many times I’ve lost count of all the interests and personalities I’ve had. I’ve been a two-dimensional miner with little-to-no depth, a book-loving miner with brothers that I cared for—more than most sisters are willing to admit—and I’ve been the special girl with bat wings and the ability to manipulate shadows with a simple thought.

Then you took it away and stripped me down to nothing. No magic, no pizzazz—nothing. Living and breathing in that new world, where silver is cherished and gold is useless, can be infuriating. You’ve made me one of the top female assassins and I wonder why that is.

Is it because of those other young adult heroines I’m meant to take after? The chosen one with a destiny full of power, a touch of romance and a dramatic adventure? It’s easy for you to create characters that are copies of another. Take it from someone who’s been there—being a replica is boring, tiresome. Instead of pushing your boundaries you fall back into your comfort zone.

And you need to get out.

Break it. Shoot at it. Read more, write more. Even try plotting or doing whatever it is fantasy writers do. Force the words out if you must. Don’t do what others before you have accomplished—you will never be like them. Find the creativity you lost and work through it.

Without you, I don’t exist. I’d rather live in a world of overused clichés then not exist at all. Finish the draft by that festive holiday at the end of the year. Have it edited and ready for submissions by the day of romance in February. Submit and be done with it for a while.

Then see your name in silver letters on the book spine at your local bookshop—perhaps there’s a picture of me on the cover as well. You celebrate and drink too much wine on my behalf. Then you start the process again, maybe with another book starring yours truly. Regardless of what you do after this, you did it.

You wrote our story and got it published.

But this won’t happen if you screw me over again. Do that and I’ll blow you a kiss then shoot you in the back.

See you soon darling,



Welcome to another Top Ten post! Hosted by the lovely Broke & Bookish, but has now moved to over to That Artsy Reader Girl, this week’s theme is Ten Books Set In A Fictional Country. The struggle was real with this one, and I did include some fictional countries, BUT I DID IT SO LET’S GET STARTEDRead More »


When Dee Moreno makes a deal with a demon—her heart in exchange for an escape from a disastrous home life—she finds the trade may have been more than she bargained for. And becoming “heartless” is only the beginning. What lies ahead is a nightmare far bigger, far more monstrous than anything she could have ever imagined.

With reality turned on its head, Dee has only a group of other deal-making teens to keep her grounded, including the charming but secretive James Lancer. And as something grows between them amid an otherworldy ordeal, Dee begins to wonder: Can she give someone her heart when it’s no longer hers to give?

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Steam whistles. The door buzzes open and Adam steps down from a ladder.

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one does not just ‘step down from a ladder’ they ‘climb’Read More »

Hello! Welcome to my blog! Today I’ll be talking about the books I want to read during February. Last month I decided to be a bit quirky and add a theme to each month’s TBR, and this month’s theme is: Fantasy Feb (I’m a sucker for alliteration don’t judge me). I’ll aim to read some of the fantasy books I received last year, most of which were from FairyLoot boxes. SO LET’S BEGINRead More »

Welcome to another Top Ten post! Hosted by the lovely Broke & Bookish, but has now moved to over to That Artsy Reader Girl, this week’s theme is Ten Books I Can’t Believe I Read! I wasn’t sure how to go about this theme, so I’ve decided to do five books I can’t believe I read (past tense) and five books I can’t believe I read (present tense). Let’s get started!

  1. Books That Tear Out My Heart (Or Are Meant Too)

There are some books I read, purely because—based on the authors previous works, the blurb, or emotional reaction from friends—I know they’re going to rip my heart out and make me tear up or cry. More often than not, I don’t tear up or cry, and maybe that’s because people tell me I will be emotional (It happened when I read Crooked Kingdom) or it’s probably becuase I’m an emotionless robot. And yet, I still read books that are intended to make me weep.

If someone can tell me why I pick these kinds of books, please get back to me ASAP.

  1. If This Is A Man by Primo Levi

I had to read this for a university subject. It was harrowing and confronting, and I’m still shocked that I managed to read it. Some of the scenes were brutal, emotional, and made goose-bumps rise on my skin. But it was so damn worth it. I don’t normally read non-fiction, but I’m glad I read this, even if it made me want to cry on public transport.

  1. Fantasy Books

When I first got into reading at the ripe old age at thirteen, I was reading nothing but fantasy—or rather, ‘supernatural’ books. The reason why fantasy books are on this list, is because I’m still surprised that someone’s written something with a fantastical twist, or they’ve given a cliched story that magical touch, which is why I can’t believe I’m still reading fantasy.

  1. The Fallen and Leviathan by Thomas E. Sniegoski

I’m actually rolling my eyes right now. During my angel phase—when I was a teenager and had NO taste—I saw an attractive man, with angel wings on the cover and thought, ‘Damn I’ll like this book.’ I didn’t. It was poorly written, utterly cliched, gave me nothing new. It was an angelic disaster. How I managed to get through it? I will never know.

  1. Books With Romance (Or At Least SOME Romance)

There are some books that incorporate romance really well. When I read these books, I fangirl so bloodydamn hard and am swooning or falling for the love interest myself. But when it’s forced, done appallingly, or is toxic, I WANT TO THROW THE BOOK ACROSS THE ROOM! And yet, I find myself gravitating towards books that have a sliver of romance in them. I’ll read them, and either became utterly infatuated with the romance subplot, or want to scream at the forceful nature of it. Again, fi someone has the answer of WHY I keep going for these books, HELP ME PLEASE.

  1. The Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare

Full disclaimer: I never read the last book in the series. I grew older, and learnt that the entire series wasn’t that flash. Three stars would be my highest rating if I were to re-read them now. How I finished five out of six books in this series, I have no idea. But I’m glad I did, in a way. It taught me how NOT to write a book series full of monsters and monstrous clichés.

  1. Sci-Fi Books

Science fiction books scare me sometimes. Not in the spooky, jump out of my skin, scary, but the fact that there’s so much science in them—and yes, I’m well aware that sounded unintelligent. To be fair, I don’t read a lot of science fiction books, purely because I’m terrified I’m not smart enough to follow along. I’m hoping that will change, as I’ve accumulated a few science books on my TBR, and who knows, maybe I’ll be less scared when I finish a couple.

  1. The Illuminae Files by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff

The main reason this series in on my list is because one, HAVE YOU SEEN HOW BIG THESE BOOKS ARE? And two, it’s written in a format I’ve never seen before. I was a bit sceptical going into Illuminae, mainly for the hype and size of the book. But I blitzed through it, and am still somewhat in awe of Kristoff and Kaufman’s epic partnership. I guess I can’t believe I read it took me a while to pick up the first two books of this series—Illuminae and Gemina—BECAUSE THEY ARE GREAT AND EVERYONE NEEDS TO READ IT BEFORE OBSIDIO COMES OUT.

  1. Audiobooks

Last year I fell in love with audiobooks. When I went for walks, or out for a run, even when I was stuck on public transport, I’d pop my headphones on and drown out the world with a wonderful audiobook. I didn’t think I’d love the experience of someone narrating to you, but I did. It was a pleasant surprise. Hopefully once I’ve finished listening to all my audiobooks on my TBR I can invest in some more. Although, my only pet peeve is that I have to listen to British accents.

  1. Hunted by Megan Spooner

This was my first audiobook and to be completely honest, I have no idea how I managed to listen to the entirety of this book when the only thing going for it was the dog, who was called Doe Eyes and a precious angel. The reason I picked it up because Beauty And The Beast is one of my favourite Disney films, so I was disappointed with Hunted because of the predictable plot twists and the dullness of the prose. I still can’t believe I finished it though.


And that’s it for me today! Tell me some of the books you can’t believe you’ve read in the comments below!